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Ten Things I Was Sorry for Today. But Wasn’t.

There was big thunder and rain this morning, early.  I wasn’t sorry for that. A spa pamper was waiting for me and that made me get up with a happy heart. Not sorry for that either. Hooray for an eyebrow wax (what moustache?) and manicure/pedicure.

So, the 10 things:

  1. I stopped at a coffee shoppe to get a large latte: “Sorry, can I get that with skim milk please? I meant to ask. Sorry.” Barista, “that’s o.k.” or maybe, “no worries.”
  2. Leaving the coffee shoppe, two people entering. I held the door for them. I said “Sorry” as they passed me. They said, “Thank you.”
  3. Arrived at the spa reception. Woman greeted me and asked, “Can I take your coat?” “Oh, yes, please,” I said. Then, she stood near me while I set my latte down and took my rain coat off, “Sorry.” And I handed her my coat.
  4. I met my aesthetician, very nice hand shake. Should I get a robe, since I’m getting the pedicure? I ask. No, she says, you can get change when you meet ________. “Oh. Sorry.”
  5. In the waxing room. I set my glasses, little purse, on a little stool. “Oh sorry, were you going to use that?” “No.”
  6. She is standing near the bed. I’m putting the insole back into my loafer. “Ha … summer sockless feet stick to the insole. Sorry.”
  7. Nice job on the eyebrows then she says, “I’m going to do something weird. I’ll take these eyelashes from the corner of your eyes.” Me: “WAIT! No! Sorry. No, thanks. Sorry, but they seem important.” Again … “Sorry.” Her, “oh, that’s o.k. I tweeze mine.” “Sorry, no.”
  8. In the manicure/pedicure massage chair. I have water and my latte on the little shelf beside the chair. “Oh sorry, I take up a lot of space.” I really said that.
  9. “Your toenails are already pretty short, so I’ll just shape them.” “Oh, sorry, I cut them last week.”
  10. I got home and I thought, holy crow, man, what the heck! I’m so sorry that I was so sorry for so many things today.

Are we conditioned to say sorry for things that we have no control over? Is it just me? Does anyone else apologise for things that are not apologisable things (maybe not a word)? What was I apologising for? For being in the way. For not wanting my eyelashes tweezed from my inner eye.

This whole thing reminds of Marianne Williamson’s oft-quoted:

Your playing small does not serve the world.

There is nothing enlightened about shrinking

so that other people won’t feel insecure about you.

 

I’m better now and tomorrow I’ll not apologise unless it’s for real. Like if I poke my sister’s eye out with a knitting needle. Oh gosh, I still feel badly for that. THAT is deserving a sorry.

1 Discussion on “Ten Things I Was Sorry for Today. But Wasn’t.”
  • Haha! This is so true, I find myself apologizing for things that are out of my control pretty frequently. Thanks for the reminder 🙂

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